Friday, September 23, 2005

beauty

what is beauty?
"Love can forbear, and Love can forgive...but Love can never be reconciled to an unlovely object. ...He can never therefore be reconciled to your sin, because sin itself is incapable of being altered; but He may be reconciled to your person, because that may be restored." TRAHERNE, Centuries of Meditation, II, 30
(No, I didn't read that piece of writing, C. S. Lewis quotes it in "Problem of Pain".)

God sees us as beautiful. I have personally been reconciled to God. My person has been restored. God must see my person as lovely and as beautiful, otherwise He would not yet be reconciled to me. Yet, He died for us even when we were still unlovely. Even when we were still not beautiful. What did God see in us? He saw Himself...He saw Himself being glorified. He loved us even when we were unlovely for His glory. (If you think that's selfish of God, read John Piper's "Let the Nations Be Glad". Well, you should read that book even if you don't think that's selfish of God, it's a great book.)

That is beauty as God sees us. What about as we see God? Do you see God as beautiful? He is working on me and I am realizing more and more how beautiful He really is. I pray daily that He would be the love of my life. That He would be more beautiful, desirable, satisfying, fulfilling than any woman ever will be. Why than any woman? Because that is my downfall (well, one of them). I have this (incorrect) notion that when I find my "dot" she will be perfect and completely beautiful in every way and I will find no defect in her. I have believed that she will be that which is beautiful, desirable, satisfying and fulfilling. But I know this is untrue. No human can ever satisfy: they are sinful and can only be at one place at one time, so they cannot always be there for you, and even when they are they will not always live up to loving you perfectly. BUT GOD. I love those words. But God can. He can satisfy me. And He is teaching me this reality. It has always been a reality that God is more beautiful, desirable, satisfying, and fulfilling than any woman ever will be; I simply have to realize it. And He is helping me to realize that truth. He is becoming the love of my life and I am seeing more and more that He is beautiful.

It's a great place to be.

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Blogger Leilani said...

"God sees us as beautiful. I have personally been reconciled to God. My person has been restored. God must see my person as lovely and as beautiful, otherwise He would not yet be reconciled to me."

To me it so often seems as if the above piece of information is so EASY to know in my head, but so HARD to know in my heart. In a world that has one definition of beauty, it's good for me to be reminded that God has an entirely different way of looking at things...

26 September, 2005 08:41  

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