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first love

When I think of all I’ve seen
Nothing compares
to what You give
And to drink of what You bring
You quench the thirst
for me to live
I am satisfied by what
tenderness You’ve shown
to me
and I empty all that I am

And You fill
my life
You’re everything to me
And there’s nothing else I need anymore
And I know You
are everything to me
And there’s nothing else I need anymore

I have tasted and I know
this fire birthed inside
will only grow
And I’ve sought all that this world
tried to offer me
and it lead me to Your feet
And I empty all that I am

And You fill
my life
You’re everything to me
And there’s nothing else I need anymore
And I know You
are everything to me
And there’s nothing else I need anymore

I will lay down all my needs
and You will come and make them new
to make You my only desire
my desire

And You fill
my life
You’re everything to me
everything to me
And You fill my life
You’re everything to me
And there’s nothing else I need anymore
And I know You
are everything to me
And there’s nothing else I need anymore
There’s nothing else I need...
~Jeremy Camp - "Nothing Else I Need"

I like that idea: empty all you are and He will fill you.
God needs to be our first love. He needs to be the source from where we obtain our joy and our fulfillment.

A student was talking to me tonight about video games and he mentioned that one game he has been playing a lot has been getting boring. I pointed out the fact that we need to make God the source of our joy because He is infinite. He is never-ending. We can find out 10,000 new things about God every day and after a thousand years we will not have begun to exhaust the vastness of His character. There will forever be more aspects and facets and attributes of God to discover. Video games are finite, everything besides God is finite and thus will only satisfy us for as long as it takes us to explore that thing fully. Then we will no longer be satisfied and will desire more...something else. Desire God! Be satisfied in Him! He is everything you need! He needs to be our one desire, our goal, our first love.

workaholic

7/10/02 5:44 pm - in pyramid - 1st night

sitting outside listening to people. They're talking about airplanes, that's what they do. Others are talking about computers thats what they do. People talk a lot about what they do & they like to talk about it.

I don't enjoy talking about computers. "yeah, I got a new 512MB 1200athalon 80GB computer. ...Oh yeah, you can send a 2mb file across this e-mail system really quick." I don't care, does it work? Great, let's talk about something else. i dont like talking about that stuff.

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I thought I had written more than that, but that was something I wrote years ago (as you can see from the date and the 'new' computer description) when I was in Indonesia the first time ("pyramid - 1st night" = pyramid was the location where the MAF family conference was, 1st night = I wrote that on the first night of the conference).

I might add to this later but I've found that so many people's jobs take over their lives. Either that or they struggle to keep their lives (the things they really want to do, the people they really want to be) separate from their jobs. so I want a job where my job can be my life, or, maybe to put it better--I want to live my life and have that be my job. which i'm kinda doing right now and i hope to do with the rest of my life.

so many people make their job their life. i want my life to be my job.

reminder

i posted this a while back. it is the definition of sin according to John Wesley's mother:

Whatever weakens your reasoning, impares the tenderness of your conscious, obscures your sense of God or takes away your relish for spiritual things. In short if anything increases the authority and the power of the flesh over the spirit, that to you becomes sin, however good it is in itself.